fie! fie! fie! unknit thy threatening unkind brow...

i'd be seriously heartbroken about a cancelled trip... no... not postponed...but cancelled -- the soonest we pick up the threads from here would be in december -- but who knows what december will bring... so (but if it makes you feel any better, i still havent unpacked :>

but im actually so over it... for multiple reasons:

a) i never really expect anythyng to work. it's good to expect the worst, so when it does happen (and it always does), you can hold your head high and say, "i told you so!" one of life's more important lessons is: smile, tomorrow will be worse. a bit like murphey's law: if anythyng can go wrong, it will... ok... so a tour-de-escape-de-scorching-summer-heat didnt happen... but it wouldve been worse -- i couldve run out of icecream... AaAAaaarrrrGh! b) i wasnt really actually interested in going to pc bhurban... and i was dead sure that's where we wouldve ended up. c) iv been baking since :D i made an icecream pie (requires pre-purchased icecream, pre-purchased cake, and God-made fruit).  after assembly, let set for 25 minutes on top shelf of freezer (sounds professional... no?)  d) oh yeah, and most importantly, i got excellent news alhamdolillah, on the day the trip was cancelled. couldnt help but feel good...

my scholarship thyngy came in the like two hours after the trip was ... err... over... and them ppl said they'd cover ALL my expenses, and then summore :D like... you know, on-campus housing AND pocket money :D im like... so totally pre-paid. seriously, who wouldnt cheer up at that?

khair 

on D-day, slept out a 36-hour jet-lag... (happens specially on long flights you dont take), and since then, been having a blast about town.

thys is a lame-ass excuse of an update, but it's the best i can do considering my mental state. i bought me shoes i dont need; met up with an old teacher and mentally cursed myself for ever "setting aside" clay; and had a conversation with a very old friend who said i shouldnt give up anythyng i love, since i was going to die at 60 - "youre already 23 and getting there". (apparently, i skip birthdays or somat... 21, 22, 23, 26, 32, 60)

tyms like these, you know friends are priceless. you wish you could just give them away with toothpaste. ======================================================== bulleh shah gal tayun mukdi, jadon 'main' nu dillon gawanye