and i want... and i need...

im getting a very very very strong urge to apply somewhere for an MPhil. actually, i know exactly where i want to apply. but one assumes a gap year is necessary; at least a year of some practical work is important. but if i get into that, than i wont be able to apply to any organization that has a two to three year management trainee programme (they make you sign bonds and shit)... if i do, then i wont be able to leave after a year :s i'll have to wait for 2-3 yrs atleast :s and i want a phd NOW! what to do! what to do!!! i want! i want! i want! :'(