raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens

i wish i could be funny. i wish i could crack people up with my dorky sense of humour. i wish i wasnt strapped very tightly to a runaway rollercoaster. i wish there werent so many mosquitoes here. i dont wish to update no more, because i cannot guarantee quality. that doesnt mean i'll quit blogging. i just wont update. and that isnt the same thyng. though i rather like the word subtle. which is slightly different from stuble. you could even have subtle stuble. if you tried hard enough. which reminds me, i havent shaved in a week now. im becoming a sloppy jane. i've never lived in a blackhole. i dont know what it would be like. but im sure, if you could live in a blackhole, you would probably be living my life. you'd be stuck in a deja vu warp, where every morning, the sun would rise from the east, and make its way across the sky. if i were god, i'd make the sun go around in a maze everyday, where it would have to find its way out. the road each day would be different, and the sun would never lead a mundane life, going from east to west until it back in the east again, having never really moved from its spot. though i wonder if the sun ever gets bored. so many new thyngs to see each day. so much activity, so much happening around it. so much chaos. i wonder if it ever goes mad. heh. and you know, if the sun were to run away, there wouldnt be too many places it could go to. a blackhole could be a tiring place to live in.you know. all emotion would be sucked out of you. all thought. all reason, and logic. and you would become a void, just existing. although, i dont thynk anythyng can exist if it doesnt have meaning. im sure blackholes have meanings too, i just havent been able to read them yet. and your tears would freeze. imagine being slapped with a rubber duck. or a rubber chicken. repeatedly. except if you were in a blackhole, there would be no movement, which could be a good thyng. depending on how much you enjoy rubber chickens slapping you around :D or rubber ducks, if that's what tickles your fancy. i really like the font im using on my msn. it goes somethyng like : bradly hand itc. it's slick. most ppl cant understand it, which is so much cooler. ive got pictures from islamabad. perhaps i'll put them up.